Growing up - Teenager and Beyond

Ok, so I went back to my old format again because it is safer this way. I have actually had a really nice day today despite the rubbish start. What I mean by that is I had my paper-round first thing this morning which I always dread. It was ok this morning because I was out the door by 7.20 and down to the papershop before 7.30. Then I had done the first half by eight and was done by eight thirty despite having to go back halfway through because I had done some of the papers wrong.

Then I got properly dressed because I don't think I would be seen dead in my paper-round outfit; shorts, tights and oversized hoody (actually my mums!). I wore my plain white top, a pretty summery skirt (weather holding up, it's proper lush and all) and my school cardigan. Then we left home at about 12.30 and went to our friends house. We had another BBQ for lunch which was proper nice and then we went off for a walk. I hate walking, it's my least favourite thing to do ever, but this was nice because I spent the time chatting with the boys and my older brother.

My other topic if I remember rightly, is Pompey. Pompey have won their match against Tottenham which is awesome. They are now in the FA cup final again and everyone is hoping they are gonna win, apart from people that support Chelsea of course. Anyway that's all for now, as I am off to search through this blog directory and find some other teenagers blogs to read...

Lots of Love, Lillie-Abbie

Hey it's me again bringing you useless things that you probably never even wanted to know. Today, you might have noticed this already, I don't have a normal title. Usually my titles are, "????? & ?????" but today I felt like doing something different. Now go and get yourself a biscuit and a cuppa because this is gonna be a long blog post.

What has happened since the last time I blogged on here? Well I am writing this on our new laptop after our old one decided it had enough. I don't know if you've seen the dell advert that has the song, "Lollipop!" in? I have one of those laptops now in red. We were gonna get blue but they didn't have any, and if it had been fully up to me then I would have gotten a pink one.

What else? I have a new love obsession and all. I love this guy but it is not good because he is going out with someone who is friends with me. Any ideas about what I can do now, because seriously I don't want myself or anyone else getting hurt. It's Easter holidays at the moment and I am loving getting some sunshine. Seriously where I am we have had hot sun for four days now and this is fab because I am so bored of the cold old winter.

Yesterday I mowed the lawn and we had our first BBQ of the year which was brilliant. I tried to mow the lawn straight but I ended up with these curves in the garden which made me laugh. My Dad wasn't as pleased. I did the Sasauges (can't spell) on the BBQ and they were slightly overcooked but everyone said they tasted good.

I was at someone else's house, a friend of mines, not last night but the night before after we went to Chichester together. Then the four of us piled back to my friends house and slept the night there. We went up onto this hill by her house and that was awesome and all because we took millions of pictures of the four of us. There is this one of us and we are all laying on our bellies on the floor and we are all laughing and smiling at the camera. So it is a really nice photo.

Finally what am I going to be doing today? Today I am going to my brothers friends house with my family. This might sound slightly odd but we do this all the time. They are good family friends but they are slightly out of things. I have said before my little brother is eight and my elder is sixteen and I am 14. Their kids are 16 and 18 or 19. And they suggest going to the sealife centre or going swimming.

WHAT THE HELL.

Lots of Love, Lillie-Abbie

Hello,

A little while ago some more of my friends had a fallout but this time everyone knew about it. Two of them fell out about stupid little things and me and another friend were bystanders. But we tried to break things up between them before they started saying things they would really regret.

Not only were we too late but then they started having a go at us. I managed to drag myself out of it but my other friend was not so lucky. She fell out with one girl majorly and then we were in the sides position. I hate taking sides in arguments. Then my friend took the girl, whom she hadn't fallen out with's, side and I was stuck. I prefered the other girl anyway and now because she was being ganged up on I felt like I had to choose her.

This is my little life lesson for the day and so you better listen up. I didn't take a side or bitch to anyone about anyone else and I am so glad of this. Now we are all sort of friends but in a strained way. Everyone stills likes me well (as far as I know!) but my friend and the girl she fell out with are barely talking.

Infact I am speaking to my friend now and she says that today, when they met up without me (I was invited I just couldn't make it) she stormed off and now has blocked and deleted her from facebook! It was all due to the fact they left her after she went into a shop for half an hour and they got bored.

So now she has accused her of stirring things up and it's all going down hill. I know that if we had all never fallen out things wouldn't have got this bad - at least not this quick.

 "Lillie-Abbie"

Hey again,

So there is this really nice guy who I met when I was on holiday this summer in Turkey. He was really nice and all but I fancied a different guy. The four of us were amazing friends and it was a fairytale holiday. He told me that he fancied me and it was kind of embarassing. Then I gave him my number at the end of the holidays so we could keep in touch, I gave it to all my friends, and then that was it. Or so I thought!

Ever since he texts me all the time, I've had more texts from him alone that my top five best friends put together! He's really nice and I think I might be beginning to like him in that way too! Good times.

My friends atm are having a major fall out without one of them even realizing. The first girl, let's call her Sally and the second girl, let's call her Mandy, used to be good friends. Infact Sally used to be my all time best friend in the whole world. But Sally went off with Mandy who I was also friends with and ruined that friendship.

Anyway so Mandy upset Sally by saying stuff behind her back and making fun of her to her face. Then Mandy like made up with her, a bit too late! So now Mandy thinks all is well whereas I know that Sally is really mad with her! Infact no one likes Mandy ATM...

It's a shame that I am so vain really because I can be deep sometimes. Then I ruin it by saying something stupid.

 "Lillie-Abbie"

Hi,

I know that today won't be long and that however much I want to keep this day going I won't be able to because I can't stop the night. But I can make sure that I relish every second of every day and stop getting so hung up on all the bad things in my life. There are people out there with lives that are a million times worse than mine. I resepct the ones that are strong but also those who aren't because sometimes it is just too much. I greatly think of Anne Frank, who, even after hearing of the mass killing of her Religion and having to hide from people for years said something along the lines of, "Deep down I know they are good people." The optimism and happiness and love she showed in the times of difficulty astonished me and I think she is a very strong person.

Forever. Forever is a long time and I know that it's something I won't be here to see. I won't know how my life is going to end until the last second or maybe I never will. I don't know now whether we'll find a cure for cancer or if there will ever be world peace. There are so many things I don't know but this has never scared me at all. I am so unbothered about my own death but the only time I feel terrible is when I think of my family dying. I hope this doesn't happen for ages because I don't know how I'd cope.

 "Lillie-QAbbie"

Hey y'all!

I think I am bit crazy but I am not sure and have just spent like an hour trying to work out if I was or not. I think that in itself makes me a bit weird. Anyway I was listening to this song earlier and I like the first 30 seconds so much I just kept going to the beginning of it again and again. Until my brither came in and turned it off because he was trying to revise for his Spanish Oral and couldn't concentrate with, "Nice legs, Daisy Dukes, making me go whoo hoo!" blaring all the time.

Woopsie. And then once I spent hours trying to work out whether my eyebrows were uneven coming to the conclusion of : undecided. What a waste of time. Anyway and then the other day I was doing this excersise I have to do for my physio and you put your hands on the floor, and your feet and then stick your butt up in the air. It is highly attractive and everyone was laughing and then my PE teacher came running up and leap frogged over me and soon the whole class was running round the gym doing this.

Also once I was doing a roly poly across the playground when suddenly I went straight into a puddle. I got drenched and soon everyone was running around in puddles. We were soaked and all got detention but it was so worth it to have that fun time,

Anyway my Dad's turn on the laptop now, got to go!

 "Lillie-Abbie"

Hola!

I was out today wiht my friends, one of whom is the same age as me the other is a year younger but she acts our age. We were going round all these shops that have a million mirrors and I kept seeing my reflection. After a while I started feeling sick. Why? Because I look like the ugliest person you have ever seen in your whole life. They are both so beautiful and I am just sooo ugly and it is not fair. They are both blonde, they are both thin, they are both gorgeous and they both have Best Friends.

I want to be blonde so bad but if I died it that colour a) mum would have a fit and b) I was looking at dye boxes and they wouldn't have any effect on my hair. It's not fair because my little bro got the cute blonde genes and my elder brother got the slim genes and I get the brunette, ugly fat genes. Not fair.

 "Lillie-Abbie"

Herro!

I read this book today called "the boy in the striped pajamas!" and i cried so much I thought I was gonna die. It is so sad but it is such a beautiful story, isn't it? If you haven't heard of it then it's about WW2 and the Concentration Camp Autchswich and it's the saddest story ever! You have to read it if you haven't already because it is so amazing. We are doing it in English which is why I decided to read it anyway, and I never realized that I would find it so deep. I just don't care about my looks any more. I can't stop thinking about it. I know this is not a true story but Autchswich was! I can't believe how much this is making me feel different and sad and things that I don't even know how to describe.

Facebook... I love this thing. It is amazing. That's all I have to say for now as I am so tired, so night night night!

 "Lillie-Abbie"

Hey there, sorry for the long time no write,

Fat people. Well, right now I am watching this show called "XXL the new generation" and it's all about some children that are somewhat overweight. I mean I know that I am not exactly thin but these poor children are way larger and I feel bad for them. My cousin, who is 23 is very opinionated about larger people and my Mom says that he is really arrogent about it. Anyway sorry if anyone was really offended by this bit but I have no issues with people who aren't thin coz I'm not either!

Now onto the best bit of the year so far! We have had three days off school last week and only went back today because of all the lovely snow. It looked so beautiful and then me and my little brother made this amazing snowman. It froze solid eventually and now you cannot break it. To prove my point earlier I was shoving it and then the head fell off. As my little brother turned round I shoved it back on and grinned innocently!

 Lol, "Lillie-Abbie"

Hey there people,

So it is now 2010 and this is my first post of the new year. I am very sorry that I haven't posted sooner but I have been doing loads of stuff and I really just haven't had time right now. I slept for hours on new years day then we had friends, yesterday I had a party and then a sleepover and so you know it's all been a bit hectic. But I love new years. I always pledge to change my life and yet it never really happens all that good. Ok so for a bit I will do all my homework and do the dishwasher when I'm asked but soon it wears off and I go back to being me! But, yeah, 2010 might just be the best year of my life, or it may be the worst, or even a year that I won't remember for more than a second after it's overm who knows. But I do know, that I am going to have as much fun as I can with my friends.

So know I am going to do a little section all about them and what they mean to me. I am not going to be saying names as per usual, but I will describe what they are like and why they are important in my life. I'll start with my friend who I can text or call any hour of the day and she will answer and be like, "You need me to come over?" I don't say yes often but it's nice knowing I can. Then I have my friend who is a bit babyish for our age and this is good because I know that I don't have to act grown-up around her because in my heart I will always be a child. Then I have friends that will give me anything I need - no questions asked. Friends who can cheer me up whenever I am blue and people who I support but I like it that way. People hate people that depend on them as a general rule but I love the responsibilty it brings with it. Bye for now then,

 "Lillie-Abbie"